A Prayer: To the Father who gave His Son so that we would not pay the price for having given up our own.
This has a been a long and beautiful weekend for me, but so bittersweet in that it was Mother’s Day weekend. A holiday that I generally use to celebrate all the beautiful women in my life (my mama, my not-at-all-wicked stepmama, my grandmothers, my beautiful sister who is mother to three of her own, and any and all other women in my life who have born their own!) However, I made a decision two years ago that changed how my heart would respond to Mother’s Day forever - I gave up a child, my child. Out of fear, depression, emotional manipulation, and via lies of the enemy - I came to the conclusion that both my daughter and I were better off without ever meeting each other. And so I took away her future to preserve mine.
Friends, I need you to hear that THE LORD REDEEMED MY GRAVE MISTAKE. I know now that only He can forgive my transgression, my selfishness, my fear, my need for control. And more than that I need you to hear that the LORD has forgiven you and/or any other woman you know who has made the same choice, for the same reasons or others. He knows your heart and He makes good of all things - we were saved long before we ever sinned. And the beauty is that we still get to draw nearer to Him, in thanks to the sacrifice of His own son so that it could be so.
With gratitude beyond words to the Father who gave His Son so that we would not pay the price for having given up our own - I want to pray that each of us gets to draw near to Him, feel the warmth of His joy and love toward us, feel the hope that our mistakes do not dictate our futures, and encourage each of you to hold onto the promise that we were each created with a unique capacity for children and in His time - we too, even us, will get to experience the joy of motherhood again someday.
SOLI DEO GLORIA, as both daughters of the Father and as future mothers!
